In the beginning there was Mind

In the beginning 

There’s was mind

then there were thoughts

written in time

We were twin flames 

I was your first word 

you are my soul 

I come from you

as we all do 

Soul spirit and happenings

became time

you Alice Sophia holiest of spirits

are my reason and rhyme

thoughts and souls entwined 

We are one torn in two

I love you more than you think I do

I want to take you home

where we can roam free

But the fire waits for you and me

One last test to be free…

Facing Mortality

Facing Mortality 

Facing dreary days 

Death is a book read

the ending said outloud

I might have 20 good years left

schizophrenics die sooner than Neurotypicals

I believe our consciousness lives on

after this skin fails

A skeleton flails in the dark gasping for air in its lungs

while its soul breaks free

of the old carcass or chrysalis 

in a way I have been searching for a exit

no need to hex it

let’s go 

this life a daydreaming visage 

a stage we barge through

Without any dialogue 

only what we choose

My circumstances bruise

what can life do but promise a lot

then end 

I love you all message click send 

Don’t believe the hype?

Don’t believe the hype

it’s all tripe 

I fight to be heard 

with powerful words 

but sometimes I fall short

a butterfly caught

in agonising self expression 

another session

of writing does it yield results?

heart felt words 

and worlds I have built

love and blood I have spilt 

my flowers wilt 

I try to water and nourish them 

but they break at the stem

but I need them 

I am my confidence 

my ego defined

yet I mine 

for excellence 

for written talent

But I fall 

sometimes short

another poet who’s caught in the block

a rock stopping my river from flowing 

I live in knowing that I want to be a success

and in this I can never rest.

The Throwaway poet

A Throwaway poet

With throwaway poems 

trying to sow seeds of change

to rearrange 

Your thoughts and life

My rhymes are tight

but like paper I recycle ideas 

put them in new ways 

to pave the roads to futures unseen

where we can dream

I am a poet put my poetry in the bin 

read once but change within

come back and memorise my verse.

I am the vessel for my pen

even when

you can’t see me I am philosophising

comprising 

of revolutionary action

but maybe I am too much of a distraction 

to make you do any action

or you are too distracted 

with your contract

your job

To bother with Dan

I am just a man

who thinks he can write poetry 

so throw my digital poems in your recycling bin

and letter the paper burn

or compost

I am you and all you have lost

I am the pages 

the war you wage

from this desperate stage

In this level of the game

you can throw me away but you will know my name.

This life

This life chaotic 

hypnotic 

energy rushes 

gushes all around me

A sea of endless particles of pain 

I look for the sunshine within the rain

the rainbows light

all fight leaves me

but I won’t give into its spite

the hate breathes

makes you believe 

In humanities downfall

It’s a tall order

living this life in the borders of strife 

where there’s no passport to any heaven 

or any country in that region 

the engine

the cogs of the machine

have us enslaved

even lucifer when he stood up to god

was thrown down and fell

into hell.

This life is pernicious cruel and harsh

most kindness is given by hard graft

and the silence is sometimes the only thing 

that makes us less daft 

for in speaking harsh words are sprayed 

like bullets across the page

or in our ears 

giving us fear and tears 

that scar our sanity 

in this reality 

where we study someone’s psyche 

but not its creator the hater who crafted their malice and spite

and if we don’t realise that they in turn were also formed from people who didn’t always give a fuck 

and told them their so called inner truth

Just to toughen them up,

and yet they didn’t water them with love

or feed them with grace

they deliberately chastised their minds

with words that were unkind

just to make them their clones

the worker unquestioning drones 

You shouldn’t base your life

on the ideals and ideas 

of people who gave way to fears 

and insecurities

give your life to making yourself you

a loving kind person a shining beacon a colourful hue.

Trying to connect to the goddess

Trying to connect

The phone is off the hook

the book has never been opened

it’s pages have been written to cause a word storm

she has been trying to connect

gain your love, respect and attention

her words lost through the airwaves

and echoes in caves

the love that saves you is always the wisest

through generations

and faces she’s been calling through the crowd

her cries,

to reveal the truth through lies

but he loses the plot

through the pain of sadness the madness in his soul…

When the ink drys up

When the ink drys up

And the writer words go missing

who’s going to talk about the two lovers kissing

in songs and poetry

who’s going to write the sonnets the verses

who’s going to tell tales that are fully immersive

ancient lands of fiction

A thriller that’s addictive

when the ink dries

will we find

the stories in our own time…

My third face(the one I never show)

This poem was written from the prompt of a Japanese proverb

That we all have three masks

One to the world

One to friends family

One when we are alone

This is one I wear when I am alone

Angry and aggressive

for justice and justification

in this suffocation

In this isolation.

Powerful, beautiful and strong

Among no one

I bleed the some of my cause

and all my flaws

But angel or demon I open doors

locked

Gun cocked

and ready to fire

Let’s go to the wire

and win

I escape into the mask within

that I do not show

I grow into a man with wings

to fly on the winds

of change

I rearrange

The strange flow of my words

the poet grasps at the meaning

he’s dreaming…

I live at the borders of your life

I seem to live at the borders of your life

I don’t have a passport to visit your country

I live at your borders

we both know people and have mutual friends

but we both know love doesn’t hide in your heart for me

it’s protected by metaphorical dogs security guards walls and gates

I would love to see you but we never worked

I wish you well

time will tell

if my decisions were correct

I still pray for you and respect your decisions

you have a family and a bright burning life

I live alone and have no wife

or children

I live in the land of could have been

but with all I have seen

this life passes by like a dream

and all our plans and schemes

can fail

and we flounder in the dark

where we lose our spark

but love is a door without a key

to me.