Tag Archives: darkness
A daydreamer or ADD sufferer
Tune out switch off
Disassociate cough
wheeze
Run off pace never be free
only in daydreams
only in dreams
only in nightmares
and screams
Empathy searching for threats
which threaten you
answer in delusions cruel
criticise your attention span
you’re thick often man!
you don’t understand the problem
but any happiness we’ve robbed you of
every piece of joy
ever since you were a little boy
your mum was stressed
screaming unavailable with hardly any hugs to bless
your Dad a big brother lost
the price of care and all it cost
Never mind you carry on but the exits
Been hexed
you reach out but you’re vexed
No one can love you
it burns through your life
like a candle slowly waxing burning away
into the terrible unconscious unconfident ways
which have haunted you
anxiety insanity no one cares they are fighting their own battles with despair.
Family tree
You were born from a tree
Family,
Branches dances
Haunted by love
bearing fruit
with roots
in the darkness of the ground
We’ve waited for the leaves to grow
from sapling relationships
to the rain that drips
onto your trunk
I am my grandads whistling tunes
My grandmas stitches and knitted fate
My uncles smile
my aunts stern determination
my own righteous indignation
and individuality
Those contrasts sought through things that our missing
two lovers kissing
married through the rings of time kept with the trunk of the family tree
from the care sown
all saplings are grown
And given light if we talk through our roots
and fungal connections and collective consciousness
we are all
everywhere everything at once!
Darkness turning into light
Darkness turning into light
my fright turning into fight
all sadness I restrained
turned into love
my eyes focused on her
my picture on the wall
a flower opening her petals like wings
begins to make me sing
I know my true foes are triumph and disaster
both are foolish things to master
I am time
the fading
into blades of grass
then emerging into the everlasting
I am cast into the fiery furnaces of hell
tempered by water the river banks swell
the steel of sword that comes out my mouth
Will protect the people I love
but sometimes will fly away like doves
and the bullets fired
Will miss
and we will kiss them away
with words that heal
and reveal
hidden truths
like super sleuths
and detectives
that are respected.
Killed by a million insensitive words
Words go deep
they creep into my scars and wounds
I cannot tell that you meant it or not
or even realise the damage you cause
I know I am flawed
But sometimes you love me open mouthed with the things that come from your jaw
they are too raw.
If you strangle me it would be cleaner
but your words are meaner
do you mean what you say?
Your words spray
Cut like a split artery
hurt people hurt people
but sometimes evil is insensitivity
callous chaos
I cry
and want to die
emotion abuse
obtuse
and won’t relent
I can’t vent or your words will grow worse
and more vicious
you and I are from different worlds
and I can tell
that you believe I sometimes belong in hell.
Do you not know love?
The burning flames of sacrifice
the aching waking torment
that grows ever more evident
The pain of attraction that won’t relent
her smiling eyes
used to be yours
now whatever her flaws you can’t move on
the darkest night of the soul
Burns in pain in an insane world
the desperate search for water in the desert
when dehydration kicks in
the way you sicken for one morsel of food
from a heavenly table
every bone aching to see her again
just to hear her words
but the sky the birds are bereft
she has left
and stolen your love as well
in this hell which could have been heaven
but the hours too late
it’s way past 11
and all you have is a voice in your head
is it her’s?
But it purrs like love and hate
and there’s no solace in waiting
hating,
the space between our worlds
which barely touched and existed.
Medusa
We all have it in us to bear a curse
that is worse than playing the victim
You used to be beautiful
now your lips are cold
and full of venom
behind your fangs
are the same hunger pangs
Braided hair now shakes with snakes
which bite and hiss
you used to be a temptress
now you turn people to stone
they leave you all alone
Beautiful woman savage with revenge,
avenge
what was taken away
the sky burns red
what was taken
Can never be given back
your tail snakes a hypnotic rhythm
Beautiful cataclysm
I turn to stone just another victim
In your eyes…
Black ribbon
Black ribbon
needs driven
stockings and suspenders
it’s mad our endless drive
for sex
black rimmed specs
A sexually active secretary
bends into an awkward pose
one you have chose
to fore fill your fantasy
Baring all
her vulva a coin slot
waiting for an offering
her ass like a forbidden fruit
In which to shoot
Your shot
your seed
in a garden of need.
Alice in chains
Chained through your timelines
you say release you from the curse
the curse of loving me.
I know the bite of your mouth
the viscous vicious nature of your tongue
We both see things from only our point of view
a blood red hue.
You try to reach me through the crowd
Sometimes I hear you loud
and sometimes you whisper
like the wind
This is my curse to know the truth
while in denial
there is no proof
I fight a desperate battle to be heard
maybe you will one day.
In the overtones of songs are the echoes of the promise we made
over every grass blade
our delirium
our love
our blood song curse
we are chained to the words we have said
they flow in our veins
I am your twin flame but we are caught in tragedy
separated
by lies
and our clones who stand as jealous spies
You are the light in my eyes
the only one.
Occupied/possessed
I have been occupied
Like the sign on a toilet cubicle
I have been subjected to your ridicule
Your voice comes and goes
like the wind that blows
Maybe my heart was hollow
and needed to be possessed
but now I cannot rest.