Trying to save the girl in the fire

Angels are just messengers

I know the world cries out for a saviour

I have been fighting for good behaviour 

in amongst demons and nay sayers 

no one heralded me

no angels,no wise men and shepherds

every woman whispered “am I your Sophia?”

I carried it as a riddle 

god was on the fiddle 

They said I was the escape artist

of this life

this prison

a schizophrenic 

but they didn’t know I was brave enough to think beyond

that stereotype 

I know I am right

delusion sometimes is the only solution 

love the illusion of separation 

everywhere everyone is in chains 

just fighting for scraps 

a poet kept under raps 

and speeches 

I fight to teach

I just want to save the girl in the fire 🔥 

but it could go to the wire.

The poem I want my loved one to hear

You are more radiant than the sun

my words lean upon

you like gravity pushes us down 

but in those sounds 

are the meanings that ground

my very existence 

and life

if anything relates to you 

it tends to send me into a dreaming state

Scheming late

to win you at all costs

in this game of life

which trees survive frosts 

to bear fruit 

like actions

you are more than a distraction 

you are my everything 

and yet I keep coming back

and I am taken

my heart is awakened not bored

I live aboard your wishes 

which dance like dandelion seeds 

on the wind 

I love you I love you I love you lots.

Welfare cuts

A poverty trap 

now a map

for the after life 

If there is even one

work work work

in this god forsaken land

until you drop down dead

Because the retirement age has gone up

drink from a cup of black coffee 

If you can afford it

cut back your life 

until you’re a skeleton on the doll

lose your independence until your just a ghost of a soul

Go to the dentist get fleeced 

be told to live within your means 

and be told your disabled and unclean

til all of humanity are hard and mean

and there’s no kindness in this world 

in any boy or girl

we live in a vicious Victorianesque country 

where productivity and making more billions and billionaires is the only reason for living

and poverty is unforgiving 

As we eat the scraps and take the meds 

of a capitalist world view

that doesn’t care about anything but making more profit.

In the beginning there was Mind

In the beginning 

There’s was mind

then there were thoughts

written in time

We were twin flames 

I was your first word 

you are my soul 

I come from you

as we all do 

Soul spirit and happenings

became time

you Alice Sophia holiest of spirits

are my reason and rhyme

thoughts and souls entwined 

We are one torn in two

I love you more than you think I do

I want to take you home

where we can roam free

But the fire waits for you and me

One last test to be free…

Facing Mortality

Facing Mortality 

Facing dreary days 

Death is a book read

the ending said outloud

I might have 20 good years left

schizophrenics die sooner than Neurotypicals

I believe our consciousness lives on

after this skin fails

A skeleton flails in the dark gasping for air in its lungs

while its soul breaks free

of the old carcass or chrysalis 

in a way I have been searching for a exit

no need to hex it

let’s go 

this life a daydreaming visage 

a stage we barge through

Without any dialogue 

only what we choose

My circumstances bruise

what can life do but promise a lot

then end 

I love you all message click send 

Ode to baked beans

I used to eat baked beans as a child

I found comfort in their tomatoey taste mild 

I used to dip in my chips and fish fingers 

as a sauce to tickle my tongue and linger on

now I have them with a cheesy baked potato 

or mix in some chilli powder 

the taste still comforts me I am not much of a chef but I am prouder 

of my efforts when the beans taste different or better than their original taste 

I try not to waste 

any of the beans 

I remember my friend eating them cold

but I wasn’t impressed or sold

on this idea 

I think they need to be at least warm

I suppose they are still edible my friends way

but maybe in habits we cannot stray 

even though our tastes may change

I like to think I am not that strange!

Don’t believe the hype?

Don’t believe the hype

it’s all tripe 

I fight to be heard 

with powerful words 

but sometimes I fall short

a butterfly caught

in agonising self expression 

another session

of writing does it yield results?

heart felt words 

and worlds I have built

love and blood I have spilt 

my flowers wilt 

I try to water and nourish them 

but they break at the stem

but I need them 

I am my confidence 

my ego defined

yet I mine 

for excellence 

for written talent

But I fall 

sometimes short

another poet who’s caught in the block

a rock stopping my river from flowing 

I live in knowing that I want to be a success

and in this I can never rest.

The Throwaway poet

A Throwaway poet

With throwaway poems 

trying to sow seeds of change

to rearrange 

Your thoughts and life

My rhymes are tight

but like paper I recycle ideas 

put them in new ways 

to pave the roads to futures unseen

where we can dream

I am a poet put my poetry in the bin 

read once but change within

come back and memorise my verse.

I am the vessel for my pen

even when

you can’t see me I am philosophising

comprising 

of revolutionary action

but maybe I am too much of a distraction 

to make you do any action

or you are too distracted 

with your contract

your job

To bother with Dan

I am just a man

who thinks he can write poetry 

so throw my digital poems in your recycling bin

and letter the paper burn

or compost

I am you and all you have lost

I am the pages 

the war you wage

from this desperate stage

In this level of the game

you can throw me away but you will know my name.